Come Blog With Me – Day 22
Today I’m pondering on the peculiarity of the human mind. Or more specifically my own mind.
I keep starting to write blog posts on one particular topic. I write down lots of evidence “for” and “against” and then end up trying to bias it in one direction. Every time. I’ve drafted several of these posts but not one has made it to being published. It’s like I’m trying to justify something to myself.
I suspect my intuition is trying to tell me something. It knows what I really think. And it also knows that I don’t need to justify it to anyone, not even to myself. No matter how odd this thought may seem to my logical brain.
Intuition is a funny thing. I remember once looking around for a new job, and I went for a first interview with another company in a similar field to the one I worked for. On paper it was the next logical step to what I’d been doing. It would have expanded my experience, and used the knowledge that I already had. The interview went well and the people seemed nice. But even when I had a list in front of me of all the very valid reasons I should explore it further, something told me not to.
I couldn’t explain why I didn’t want to pursue the opportunity. It was definitely not the most logical decision to make. And most people would probably have advised me to go to the second interview anyway and see what happened. But it just didn’t feel right. So I didn’t go for the second interview.
Although it seems like an odd thing to do to turn down an opportunity that was clearly a very good and sensible one, it was obviously the right decision for me at that time. Everything that’s happened to me since is as a result of me staying where I was and continuing on the path I was on. And I wouldn’t change any of that – the redundancy, the volunteering, the contracting, the freelancing or the free-ranging. It’s all part of who I am today.
So why trust your intuition?
I don’t know why I should trust my intuition to be honest. Not really. It comes up with some weird stuff. It’s making me think crazy thoughts. And I’m not sure it knows what it’s doing.
But I do think things happen for a reason. People appear in your life for a reason. Opportunities and ideas emerge for a reason. And we should trust that. There’s a reason I have a thought in my head that won’t go away. And I need to bide my time and then choose whether to act on it at the right moment.
In the meantime, I am going to try and distract my mind with other things – like the last 7 days of this blogging challenge, and eating the amaretto chocolates that I was given over the weekend. And if all else fails, there are plenty of penguins on YouTube.